I am so relieved to have a day to breathe! I went to a farmer's market and healthy food store with 4 other ladies from the house and plan on drawing and breathing and reflecting the rest of the afternoon. I feel better today than I did at first; I'm definitely starting to feel more comfortable in the intensity that this program is presenting me with.
When I first got here I felt simply stifled, living in tight quarters with 12 other strong individuals, but it's a learning experience and greatly humbling. I think some great friendships will spring from being here, and I'm finding the space here and there to be alone too.
It's interesting to me how we reinvent ourselves through other people's eyes. Being confronted by such a large group of fascinating people has forced me to step back and lose some of my ego. In relating to them I have to let go of perceptions I've collected of myself and react in more unfamiliar ways to negotiate the mass of energy I'm surrounded by, whether it be in response to opinions about household matters or simply sharing of skills and knowledge (which this house is oozing with).
I will be different when we meet again.
But then, so will you!
My life and adventures
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